Being in this relationship has taught me so much. Mainly patients. I love my boyfriend so much. I know I deal with a lot more than I should have with him, but I’ve had this gut feeling since 8th grade that he would be the one for me. To this day, over 5 years later, I still have that feeling. We’ve had ups and downs but that’s what happens in a relationship. Every struggle has made me stronger. Finding ways to balance and help out with each other lives. That’s the beauty in this all. Taking it step by step till we find what will truly fit us both so we can move on from everything and be together. I love the second family I have grown to have. Each of them are so unique, and I am so happy to be a part of their lives.

I was in a weird mood all day today with all these mixed up thoughts. But sitting here with my boyfriend, reflecting on everything. I wouldn’t want to be with anyone else but him. He’s my best friend :) love you babe

You are worthless. No one fucking likes you because of the self centered lying ugly piece of shit anyone has met. Stop trying to come in between me and my boyfriend. There’s a reason why you can’t even get a girl to stay with you. So because of your fucking low self-esteem doesn’t mean to go ruining someone else’s relationship. Go take your fucking drugs to someone else you stupid pill-heroine-addicted-alcoholic. I tried to be nice to you. Now you can just go fuck yourself. Don’t come around me or my boyfriend, or there will be trouble.

Stupid prick.

flowers :)

Today was a good day, saw this lil guy, went on a relaxing bike ride with my favorite person, and to end it all off with a fire :) I love my life. I love my family. I love my boyfriend

there’s no better feeling than waking up next to you.

Did I ever mention I’m petrified of surgeries?

Oh…I’m getting my wisdom teeth out in 9 hours…going under…fml…soooo scared :(

The greatest irony of life is loving the right person at the wrong time, having the wrong person when the time is right and finding out you love someone after that person walks out from your life and sometimes you think you’re already over a person but when you see them smile at you, you’ll suddenly realize that you’re just pretending to be over them just to ease the pain of knowing that they will never be yours again. For some, they think that letting go is one way of expressing how much you love the person. Most relationships tend to fail not because the absence of love; love is always present. It’s just the one was being loved too much and the other was being loved too little as we all know that the heart is the center of the body but it beats on the left. Maybe that’s the reason why the heart is not always right. Most often we fall in love with the person we think we love only to discover that for them, we are just for past times, while the one who truly loves us remains either a friend or a stranger. Here’s a piece of advice: let go when you’re hurting too much, give up when love isn’t enough and move on when things are not like before. There is someone out there who will love you even more, surely then, you will know true love.

nothing out of the normal…perfect…to disaster…to perfect again…

blahhhhhhh.

Numb.
Torn.
Defeated.
Sick.
Tired.
Dead.
Hate.

I’m about to give up on this all…
One night is perfectly fine, amazing
The next is like a war zone…
I holding up the white flag…
This fighting is nonsense
I don’t know what’s going to happen next…

I give up..